What to celebrate – Birthday or Salvation?

 

It’s your birthday, but, unlike all past birthdays,
This one is different, as I don’t know…
If, today is for celebration or for mourning?
If, I have to continue feeling this day as blessing?
It is the day, when you took birth,
It is the day; your soul came to earth.

You grew up with a family, and made many relations and associations,
You spread your love, blessings, teachings and kindness,
On everyone who was around you,
But, now you left us all behind and we are unable to surround you,
As you left for a new journey, leaving us and leaving earth,
Making it impossible for us to meet you again in this birth.

You are the reason for my birthday,
You are the reason for my existence,
And for all this to happen, your existence was must,
I always had a reason to enjoy this day,
Thanking God to bring you on this earth,
Thanking God for choosing you to give me birth.

But, what to do today? Though it is still your birthday,
But, now when God has taken you away,
I am in dilemma, of how to react on this day?
You no longer exist, I can’t see you every day.
One part of me says “Celebrate” as this day gave you identity,
With which I grew up, and it therefore, stays a blessing indefinitely.

But, other part of me is contradicting,
Telling, celebrating birthday now holds no meaning.
Soul is eternal, and it exists even today,
Souls never take birth and never die,
Souls do not have birthdays,
And it’s not a lie.

It’s the association with body; it’s your human birth on this earth,
It’s your physical presence and existence in our families,
Which we have always cherished and celebrated as birthday,
The body that you left now as your soul embarked on a new journey,
The physical presence which is gone forever making our lives empty,
Shall I celebrate its birthday?

And now the soul is free, I believe it has attained salvation,
Isn’t it a greater achievement of your soul?
For salvation is better than human birth,
For salvation is better than staying on earth,
But, this leaves me with a unique question?
Does it mean, I have to celebrate your day of salvation?

How, can I celebrate your salvation day?
The day from when we had to part our ways,
This is your death day, the day that left us behind,
With tears and sorrow and the chronic pain,
I always wanted the very best for you,
But, that never meant to get separated from you.

Since, I am born; your birthday gave me a reason to celebrate,
But, today I am confused and unable to explain my mental state,
All I can think of, all I can say,
Is just that, I want to resonate,
My thoughts with the thoughts of your soul,
I just want to connect my voice with your ears,
And I just want you to hear,
I LOVE YOU THE MOST,
YOU ARE MINE,
AND I AM YOURS.